sianz...... just got home from band.... n i'm so sianz when i heard the news about our concert.................. its been postponed from 8 nov to 29 nov........ 21 more days added 2 the countdown..................... super sianz............................... haiz.............. n plus our nbc allowance of 60 bucks... teacher only gave me 50+ bucks nia.. cheat me sia... 1 of my senior also like tat...... crap sia....... arg................ cant b my acount nagative amount rite? i remember having 2 bucks left in my atm than i went 2 check just now it only haf 59 bucks? or wat it 56... cant remember... arg... super sianz..................................................... cant play high notes wif my new instrument... cant play long notes with my new instrument... lips get tired so easily... my god..................... arg.......................... than band 2day all play like shit like tat... than next wk no band........ haiz..........................


monday teacher's day aka start of my study week... tues go back sch do test.... 3 test... omg... wed at home rest instead of study.... thurs go back sch for extra lesson... fri - sun at home rest... monday exam..........


3 more mths..... i really hope she can make it 2 my concert....

being sick sucks..... cough,sore throat,sore eyes,on and off fever... it just sucks... anyway... changed my blog skin... it looks not too bad bah i guess...

just wtf is wrong wif all my classmates... ask them help me pass up 1 single piece of work like need thier life like tat... ask them for help nobody answer... ask if can help me pass up give me some fucked up reply like "ltr can? i'm busy..." wtf sia? i ask 1 simple question "can u help me pass up my work tmr?" is tat so hard 2 answer? does tat take lots of ur fking precious time? its just a yes or not.... so hard 2 answer ah? fuck sia.. seriously fucked up... fucked up attitude.. than teacher also another 1... i on mc 2day.. n i'm kind enough 2 let him noe n ask if i could take my test next wk together wif my others... than he reply me "is it very serious? wat happen 2 u? attendance is slipping. attitude in studies going down" like wtf lah? u think i stupid enough 2 not go after i tio warning letter? i'm stupid enough 2 get my attendance 2 so low till i get debar from exam? wtf u wan me 2 do when i just suddenly fall so ill.. not like i can predict when i will become ill n when i will not rite? other student pon u nvr call nvr do anything... i nvr go nia call my phone lah.. if not sms me lah... y treat me so special? than call n sms nvm... the thing is i told u i'm sick n yet u dont freaking believe me... than wats the point of making tat phone call or wasting tat sms? just seriously wtf is wrong wif my sch life now?

fucking friends,fucking teacher,fucking lessons,fucking school..

wah... 1 am le... just finish my journal writing.. or should i say blogging.. n heres the link
http://jonhuangproject.blogspot.com/ ... 2 hrs of blogging.. wow.. first time ever sia... 2 hrs non stop there blog... but bo bian tmr must hand up... all my classmates now chionging it... than tmr after lesson all go home chiong multimedia flash website... arg.. sianz till the max.... anyway............. gonna rest le.. duno tmr can make it to sch anot... my so freaking sore now... monday was right eyes.. "yesterday" since its alrdy 1 am.. my right eye... i wonder i slp n wake up will it b both eyes anot.. if yes than ho seh liao... dont need go sch...

added a new song into the playlist... its the opening theme from the anime "slam dunk"

find tat the song is nice... n its rather meaningful? some parts of the lyrics i feel r like wat my feelings 4 u is... i think if u saw this u would understand wat i mean rite? oh well.. enjoy the song..


gonna put the translated lyrics instead of the original 1.....

Kimi Ga Suki Da To Sakebitai by Baad

Starting my run in the middle of town,
bright sunlight at my back,
as always, [you] tapped my shoulder
I'm so enthralled by you
- yet for reasons unknown [1]
your arm won't be linked to mine. [2]

Before I realized it,
you stole my gaze, and it began.
I won't let you go. I won't have any doubts.
Crazy for you. [3]

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's be brave and take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.

On the noisy floor,
across from me at the crowded table,
I'm lost in your casual glance.
It feels like I'm in love with you,
yet it's like I'm being toyed with.
I can't lie to my soaring hearbeat (emotions) anymore.

When will it change,
this frustrating friendship?
I want to tell you. I want to make sure.
I take you away.

I want to shout "I love you."
Let's leave everything behind.
I want to find the words to melt your heart.
I want to shout "I love you."
I won't let you leave me tonight. [4]
Let's end the days we don't get past just gazing at each other
I wanna cry for you

[Instrumental]
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's try to change tomorrow.
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time.
I want to shout "I love you."
Let's bravely take a step forward.
I want you to receive these warm emotions.
I wanna cry for you

some stuff cant b healed by medicine.... some stuff cant b healed over time... some stuff cant b healed even if u noe wat is wrong wif it... some stuff cant b healed even though it seems like i can b... some stuff cant b healed even if u put in ur best.... some stuff just cant b healed....

got 2 days of mc... should i b happy or not.... woke up at 4 am 2day... just cant freaking slp... than at around 6+ 7 i went back slp..

woke up by a phone call from teacher... 4got 2 sms him i cant make it 2 sch 2day... ok nvm... wat really pissed me off is my friends... when they r sick nvr come even though i noe they make excusses i diam diam n say nth... when teacher call me tat time i noe he put on loud speaker again... than he ask me y i nvr go sch.. so i told him i sick... than my friends behind "ya lah sick lah... always sick.." knn damn fucking cb noe... than nvm.. teacher ask me "u got mc anot?" than i say "i ltr going c doctor" than another friend also damn fucking cb go say "cher u duno ah? he parents doctor..." knn lor... sibei dulan... seriously it makes me think tat the friends i made up till now... which 1 of them r really friends.... ask them go out, all last min say cannot make it than ownself go out among themselves... ask them help wif hw so unwillingly help... ask them do abit of stuff nia like wan them 2 die like tat... but on the other hand... when they wan me help them wif hw, than there act so friendly come n ask... when wan me 2 do things but i dont wan they like wan me die.... wat is this? seriously... wat fucking friendship is this? super damn pissed... now i duno if i'm burning cos of my fever or am i burning cos i'm angry... friendship my ass... i see them as old friend n cos teacher was on the phone if not san zi jing all come out liao... from sec 2 till now... such a friend... duno y i became friends wif them... mayb cos i'm blind.... or mayb cos i'm too kind... seriously i'm so damn fucking angry now...

now i learn le...dont trust anybody in the world other than urself... if not 1 day when u get backstabbed than u start 2 b furious... but i noe there r some friends i can trust.. like her.... if not.... i think i'm just gonna isolate myself on this planet... when i die no1 will noe... when i sad nobody will care... when i'm angry nobody bothers.. when i sick no1 concerns... the blood boils within me now.... feel like if u crack an egg on my forehead it will cook right away...

fucking pissed... anybody tat say 1 single wrong thing tat makes me even more angry better watch out... i duno wat i would do... mayb straight away take knife go find tat person n chop tat person up... i think this fever gonna last me for 1 whole wk..... i think even if my fever went down i still b burning hot...

went 2 doctor tat time i said felt feverish... than he take my temperature say i'm not having fever... than he hold my wrist area.. than say "hmmm.. but feels warm leh.." btw this doc is my family doc... been seeing him since i was very young.. than he was like ask if i'm coughing or having flu or wat.. i said coughing.. no flu.. than he abit shocked... cos i nvr got once went 2 c him without flu... young tat time my flu like running tap water like tat... non stop de... anyway.. b4 tat my dad was at the kopitiam buying food.. so when he came the doc was like "eh ur dad come alrdy..." than he told the nurse ask him 2 come in... than they chatted... than the doc give me mc tat time ask me.. "hmmm u wan mc for tmr anot? can make it 2 sch tmr?" than i say "er... should b can lah" than he was like "huh? should b ah? k lah give u 1 more day just incase.." than my dad was like "aiya.. he fake fake only.." than the doc say "but he really felt warm..." oh well...

but weird thing is i am feverish yet thermometer says i'm fine... if tats the case next time i fever than jia lat lor... take thermometer as evidence also cannot liao...

anyway off 2 eat my porridge... duno y i'm craving for porridge....



somehow i feel tat i'm drifting away from u again... i duno y i feel this way... but i serious hope my feelings r wrong..... i really wana believe tat its wrong.. but somehow sometimes i just cant stop tat thought from poping out of my mind... haiz... pls tell me i'm wrong..... pls........

gonna make it short... woke up feeling much btr at first... but than after awhile felt feverish... but i hack care went 2 bathe n went for band.. asked my dad send me 2 sch but he dint wan... so i had 2 walk through the light drizzle... than when reach band store i was like "sianz.... so feverish...." anyway... i was practically alone for my section 2day lah -.-.. if i knew i wont go liao... wtf lor.. get 2 new score... jia lat sia my side reading sux lah... played pirates of the caribbean : at world's end... nice is nice... but the 1 run through i dint play at all... lost all the way... oh well... now eating porriage finish liao i'm gonna rest le... anything just sms me bah...

fuck sia... damn sianz lah... haiz so damn dissappointed.... when i reach band store 2day i saw them taking the new tbone out 2 the stuff room... i saw the case is black colour de.. i was like "shit... dont tell me not the 1 we wanted..." than was like hoping i'm wrong... than went we take instrument... i open the case i was like "wah liao sianz..................." haiz... I WAN GOLD TENOR BACH TBONE!!!!! fuck... now heres the difference..

WHEN ITS IN THE CASE

WHEN ITS SET UP

haiz... the difference so big lah.................................. i wan cry alrdy.... stupid sia....3 of us got it 2day... when we go in the stuff room we were so happy lah... came out tat time our face changed... its seriously wtf lah.. last wk my senior who using gold tbone was like laughing say "ahahaha i using gold tbone... u all still using silver.. *turn 2 us* nvm u all getting urs next wk" than 2day he come he look at us "eh... still silver ah? hahahahaha" than we were like =.= alrdy damn sianz le still suan us... than the stupid mouthpiece bore so small lah.. 6 ½ haiz...... y am i always right about my feelings... its not tat its a bad thing 2 b right... but for this... i rather it b wrong than right... haiz.... than tmr my section all seniors not coming.. left we 3 juniors there alone... super sianz sia... ARG!!!!

TENOR TBONE!!!! T.T

TMR IS FRIDAY WOOHOO!!! yet... on the other hand... SIANZ!!!... haiz... y must there b test??? y?? how i wish there is no theory test or exams.... stupid sia multimedia... arg.... oh well anyway... 2day lifeskill was quite fun lah.. watch 2 singapore short film... first 1 wasnt tat bad... 2nd 1 was totally "-.-" reaction... its so damn short n so damn no link at all..... we watch liao than finish... whole class was like "eh cher... finish ah? wth?" lol... than after watching learned how 2 manage our money... haf 2 use the S.M.A.R.T method.. S-Specific,M-Measureable,A-Achiveable,R-Realistic,T-Time line

after lifeskills... went 2 my friends house... help him fix his mic... stupid sia.. can dont go de... i fix le try can liao.. than end up he tell us "oh... tat 1 ah... psps.. i yesterday plug wrong... i go plug yellow colour de".. we were like "-.- wtf.... we tell u plug red de liao u still go plug yellow" seriously sia.. he noe nth bout IT but he take IT... than played dai di n some other stuff together... than left at 3 25 like tat...

tmr sectional.. woohoo... getting new TBONE!!! HUAT AH!! hope its the correct 1... scarly teacher go buy 4 double trigger bass tbone than GG... seriously GOOD GAME!!! duno y.. but i keep having this feeling tat its not the right 1... oh well dont think too much... if tmr my blog first word is F*** than u noe wat went wrong le...

ulcers sucks... sore throat sucks.. cough sucks... wisdom tooth sucks... sucked the blood out of my ulcer just now.... wah seh.. whole basin there full of blood.... than cough leh... keep coughing non stop... now its leading 2 sore throat... haiz...

morning recieved sms saying tat we gonna recieve our 60 bucks of incentive for nbc soon... wonder how soon is the soon sia... lacking money use le.... gonna work for my sep holidays... wana earn enough money 2 buy bday present for some1... but wonder wat tat person wan leh... oh well.. lets earn the money first... seriously tempted 2 work for the F1 race sia... 10buck+ per hr sia... but guess will just stick wif working in sch bah... atleast not so strict... although the pay 5 bucks per hr... mayb 4.... oh well... hope tat when the person recieve the present tat person will b happy bah..

still waiting 4 my sis pay me my 500 bucks -.-... mayb i should put interest... every mth nvr pay must add 50 bucks... wah... not bad sia if like tat... 2 mths nvr pay i got extra 100 liao..LOL... oh well............................. haiz....

Countdown:
i lost count...

wake up so early n did nth... gd hor... than nvr went sch... feeling so sick.... anyway did nth much... just wana say added few new songs.. hope u guys enjoy it...

16/08/08
haiz... 2day woke up early feeling so shitty coughing like mad n all... went 4 band... was so excited tot gonna get new instrument 2day... end up nvr... need wait till next wk... k nvm... than another thing made me sianz is tat genting trip cancled... ARG!!! was so hoping 2 go overseas wif the band lah... first time lor... than come give me this shit say cos 1 wk b4 exam cannot.. wtf sia... cant wait for this coming friday... get my new tbone.. WOOHOO!!!...

17/08/08
woke up damn early 2day... 5+? 6+? duno lah... i'm damn slpy yet i cant slp.... wtf lor... stupid cough... seriously i hate falling sick... i mean who dont... arg... hope tues i dont fall sick till cannot go sch.. if not need take the stupid prac test another day... damn sianz 1 lor... arg... irritating cough.... haiz... i duno how 2 write my journal.. die liao lah tmr... haiz.............

oooo blogger changed thier thingy.. looks cooler now... lol...

when ur not feeling well.. nth goes well... on my way 2 sch.. almost got banged by car when running 2 the bus stop cos gonna miss the bus... lucky dint get bang... than when reach my sch bus stop.. i walk 2 sch... than almost kena bang by car again... tat car just suddenly turn in... nvm... after sch... crossing the road... AGAIN... almost banged by car... cos i cross half way the light suddenly turn red... 3 times i almost kena bang by car in less than 12 hrs.... 9 am reach class... on com... do nth... stare at the com screen n the com screen stare at me... from 9 all the way to 12 30... than went home... watched anime.. than buah tahan so went 2 take a nap... than wake up use com again... coughing like mad... feeling so jia lat... i hate it when my throat is itchy n it somewhat hurts... yet it doenst... aiyo duno how 2 explain lah... just feeling so sucky...

haiz.. tmr so happy got band... but so sad than i must go band feeling so shitty... n i really hope tmr get new tbone lah.. if not my face gonna b black the whole day lor... ok lah.. wont b black lah... just the sianz face... hardly show ppl my black face 1... only time i show is when i really damn pissed off wif some1...or when i'm working my ass out n nobody helps me... tat time than u c my black face...

anyway nth else 2 blog le.. so sianz... BEING SICK SUX!!!

ok... 3rd n last post 2day i guess....

1st up... tips for guys who wears long pants as sch uniform... do not run 2.4km under the hot sun when ur in uniform.... cos i'm having a big headache now after doing tat... next i think i'm gonna haf a fever....

2ndly... watched another movie (i noe i alot of time) called "pursuit of happyness"... happiness isnt something tat come by itself, u haf 2 pursuit happiness... i find this sentence so true... but sometimes just dont wana believe it n hope likewise...

3rdly during lifeskill class 2day... learned something called "voice of judgement" its a negative voice inside all of us... which tells us stuff like "i cant do this","i just suck at this","i haf no confidence" and stuff like tat... all those negative thoughts... i must get rid of them no matter wat... i must tell myself tat i can do it... how can ppl believe in me when i dont even believe in myself?

anyway.. gonna go slp alrdy... my head is splitting n my throat is so itchy now... hate this feeling... gd nite all... take care all... n i love her always... b4... now... tmr... n forever... <3

COUNTDOWN:
25 DAYS till my exams
96 DAYS till eoy concert

ok back 2 blog more... just finished watching "american pie : band camp" abit R.A. lah.. not tat i bian tai or wat... but the show is quite touching lah... i loved the last part where the band played "aeroplane" by Tal Bachman.... heres the video this part is touching cos the girl tot tat the guy cheated her feelings... b4 this they were in this band camp where the winning band get a scholarship in this school.. but cos of some mix up they couldnt play... n thus making the girl unable 2 get the scholarship.. so this guy went back 2 the band n asked 4 the other's help which of cos dint turned out well at the start cos they dont really trust him.. but however it turned out well... so they did tat 4 her.. n at first as u can c from the video... the girl tot tat the guy is trying 2 make fun of her again... but than the guy realized tat he really loved her n helped her get her scholarship... its a nice movie lah... but than hor below 16 de btr not watch... alot of scenes which r... ahem ahem lah... understand? its not R21.. just NC16.. lol... if i was 2 rate the show.. storyline wise i'll give a 8/10? i mean the morale of the story is quite strong bah... trust is hard 2 earn... overall bout 7.5/10 for the show bah...



how i wish my band got the score... than can play it 4 yr end concert... such a nice song...


and also.. i uploaded the actual song itself.. n heres the lyrics

Aeroplane By Tal Bachman
I was wrong to keep you underneath my finger
I was wrong to try and change you like I did
Oh I was a fool, I was to blame
And I put myself to shame
Now you and your love can show me the way
(You gave me your heart and one last chance)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I wont make the same mistakes I used to make
It was love and evolution
It was tearing it us apart
I prayed for a solution and I found it in your heart
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly,

It's true, I loved taking you for granted
I was deaf and numb and blind to who you were
Now I'm gonna show you and you're gonna see
Everything you mean to me
I am going to be there whenever you need
(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make
It was just another emotion
It was running through my veins
But you gave me your devotion and something in me changed
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly

(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I wont' make the same mistakes I used to make
Oh I feel like aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make

Some questions have no answers
Some answers have no truth
The Truth is my religion
And I seen the truth in you
And I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly




hope u guys like it... especially her... hope u enjoy it...

damn super tired... my stamina is really deproving... run 2.4km teacher give discount from 6 rounds to 4 rounds i still cannot make it.... gonna run up stairs everytime i go home... shall not take the lift... i have 2 train my stamina again...

another thing i realize... i really haf no art sense at all... i serious cmi in art... i mean drawing wise lah... music wise still can.... for multimedia i haf 2 draw a poster on "one people,one nation,one singapore" in tat poster i had 2 haf 1 3d image,1 2d image,logo and some other stuff... i cant draw at all... i think my drawing worst than p1's drawing lah.... next yr i wont b going into multimedia stream sia... if not i will die like mad....

mayb ltr at nite blog some more... its been half an hr since i ran my "2.4" n i still cant stand properly... my leg now still shaking sia... arg...

early in the morning teacher made us copy answer for our labsheet for 2-3 hrs... my god lah copy till hand going 2 break... than after tat was break... went n ate... than went for NCT (those N lvl go higher nitec de) dialog session... they wan 2 noe wat feed backs we had so they can improve it for those next yr de... sad sia... feel so like guinea pig lor... than the catered food 4 us.. but than dont look nice... so dint eat... than after tat went for last lesson... test... its a practical test yet its a theory test... get it? dont think so rite... it was meant 2 b a practical test... but than tat practical test is about theory de... stuck sia... wan pia pass yr paper le... scared of exam sia... so long since i haf this feeling le... got my multimedia notes.... 4 chap of notes but than its as thick as 6 tys like tat bah.. than went home... wah how sway can i b? when reach my house de bus stop it started raining... so had 2 walk back home in the rain... was like dranched lah...

tmr... multimedia... my god... 2 assignments... just hope its gonna b easy lah... sick n tired of all this test sia... how i wish they would give practical test n exams instead of theory......

life sometimes do suck....

COUNTDOWN:
27 DAYS till my exams
98 DAYS till eoy concert

added a new song called "musician" its a song from d-gray man.. although i'm still looking 4 the 1 wif the singing... but the piano version sounds as nice too... hope u guys enjoy the soothing piece of music.. n now i'm going 2 get rdy go sch le... cya all

fuck lah.. this is getting really irritating... starting my CA tell me tat my attendence is lower than 90% yes i noe... fine i'm going sch liao... than yesterday my mum talk 2 me bout it... super irritated liao... fine nvm... 2day afternoon stupid class chair person tell me about it... than now evening my dad ask me about it... SERIOUSLY I NOE TAT I WILL GET DEBARRED BUT CAN U GUYS FUCKING STOP NAGGING AT ME?! I NOE I HAVEN BEEN GOING SCH.. I NOE... BUT WAT U WAN ME DO BOUT WAT I DID IN THE PAST? not like i can turn back time n go sch rite... its like i'm going sch liao so wats the fucking business? super fucked up...

pissed..

COUNTDOWN:
29 DAYS till my exams
90 DAYS till eoy conc

happy bday singapore... another yr has passed since singapore got independence... 43 tough years n more 2 come... somehow i feel proud 2 b a singaporean yet at times i dont... singapore has a gd lifestyle.. yes indeed we do... singapore haf no worries for natural disasters.. however... singapore's study system is rather stressful n strict... somehow i feel tat if its alittle bit more relaxed n all it would b better... sometimes i really hope tat student can get 2 choose 2 go sch just for cca.... i dont mind having 12 hrs of band pracs... sometimes i duno if ppl who r born same yr as me r just unlucky or wat... when we r in pri sch, our sci book is so thick n dry... yet those 1 yr b4 us haf thin n interesting books... when we r in sec 4... those 1 yr younger than us get 2 learn new syllibus... unlike us.. n now in ite.. those older than us dont get 2 do multimedia theory test... yet we need 2 do... y is it so unfair? y? is the world even fair?

1 may try but 1 may not succeed... however if 1 doesnt give up 1 may haf hope...
does it really work tat way? does practices always makes perfact? does working hard always benefits? does trying ur best 2 help others always makes u a gd person? does telling white lies worth the punishment? there is just so many questions in my head now...

haiz.... loving some1 truly is hard... however i really hope she would feel it... even though she alrdy noe tat i love her... find wat my junior said so true... love is like the wind, u cant touch it but u can feel it...

just wana say i love her lots....

COUNTDOWN:
30 DAYS till my exams
91 DAYS till eoy concert

wat a boring day 2day... haiz... tmr national day celebration le... skipping ite going back sec sch... duno y i'm doing tat also... haiz... nth much 2 blog... just feeling so sianz... alone at home... haiz.... oh well.. cant wait 4 next wk than got band prac.. haiz... i wana play princess mononoke...

COUNTDOWN:
1 DAYS till jyss ndp celebration n genting registration closing date
32 DAYS till my exams
93 DAYS till eoy concert

first lesson of the day CMOS... got gd news n bad news... gd news afternoon lessons cancelled cos got it talk... n also next monday no lesson.. bad news is... tues got test... my god.. theory n practical test... *freaks out*... so after theory lessons end... went for our 2 hrs of break... than after tat 1 hr of multimedia lecture... so freaking boring lah... than bad news again... said tmr test on duno wat thumbnails shit... whole class duno wtf is tat lah... ok nvm.. so after lecture went 4 the talk... wah starting i was like so freaking happy 2 c MSI boxes on the table.. tot would b cpu cooler or wat.... so all of us waited for tat prize 2 come out... 1st 2 kick start the talk was a company called "new horizon" its a company tat teaches it stuff... so the prize he gave was a book bout cisco de... some sort of reference stuff... which according 2 him is worth 120 bucks.. but i dont need it so dint answer... next up... was NEC.. talked bout projectors... got 3 diff types lcd,lcos n d something something de... than the prize they gave wasnt tat much interesting also... so dint answer... than was "brothers" talked bout wireless printer... even more jia lat... only pen n note pad... so dint even bother... than lastly... MSI... they talked bout how 2 make a cpu from scratch.. wah seh... they use Nvidia 9600GT sia... my god.... ok lah not tat new... n its also not tat old... man.... so when they ask questions.. all rush there answer sia... than my friend first 2 get it... so i ask him show me wat it was... end up just 1 figuring.. we were like "chey.... tot wat.." than i was like there start the "eh... we go there answer lah... ask them for the graphic card.." lol... than next up was lucky draw... i duno how lucky was the lucky... but it seems rather 1 sided... only ppl from 2 class get the prize... like wth? did they even shuffle? than we were like "EH ADD 1 MORE LAH! LAST 1 GET THE DEMO CPU THERE!!!" lol.. than my friend was like "nvm nvm... the graphic card enough alrdy... dont need the cpu..." haha... than after lucky draw still got 1 more talk... but all i noe was my class all gone.. n when we were leaving, 3/4 of the ppl in the hall alrdy gone.. lol...

tats bout it bah... now i noe u shouldnt drink too much water at nite... i duno y.. i drink 2 bottle of water nia last whole nite keep running 2 toilet... lol... n the bottle is just small bottle... not the 1.5L de... oh well...

i really find 8th of the month is haunting me... 8th aug sec sch ndp celebration... 8th sep my exams... 8th nov end of yr concert... wonder wats coming on 8th of oct n 8th of dec...

COUNTDOWN:
3 DAYS till jyss ndp celebration n genting registration closing date
34 DAYS till my exams
95 DAYS till eoy concert

wah sianz.... 7 bucks... 7 bucks!!! just 2 take cab down 2 sch which is like a 5-10 min journey by cab n in the end... reach class teacher wasnt there... WTH LAH!!! arg... wasted 7 bucks just like tat... guess wat... end up we played dota in class for 4 hrs.... great class i had rite? lol... like lan shop like tat... all dint care bout the relieve teacher... haiz... slpt early last nite... woke up early 2day... yet i'm late for sch... n worst of all.... i tio warning letter... attendence rate lesser than 90%... my god... *slaps myself* WAKE UP!! 4 MORE WKS TILL EXAM CANNOT LIKE TAT!!! CANNOT TIO DEBAR FROM EXAM!!! MUST GO SCH!!!

oh well... hope i get my mood back... the schooling mood...

if only love can b measured... if only love can b seen... if only love can b touched... if only....

COUNTDOWN:
4 DAYS till jyss ndp celebration n genting registration closing date
35 DAYS till my exams
96 DAYS till eoy concert

trust... 1 word which is so hard 2 get n yet so easily lost... its so hard 2 get ppl 2 trust u... but yet cos of 1 small incident, ppl who trust u might lose the trust they had in u.... y is it so hard 2 trust ppl? n y r there so many ppl out there trying 2 make ppl lose trust... sometimes just find it so........................... haiz... nth 2 say...

its very random.. duno y i said tat stuff also... woke up in the morning feeling tat i stayed awake for 1 entire day again... i duno y.. i keep thinking bout me doing stuff... like mayb doing stuff for tmr or wat... n just feels so tired... i duno y... but since chinese 7th mth start i kept having such dreams... lets hope 2nite i can slp in peace.... no more dreams tat make me tired... or else i wont haf the energy 2 go sch...

i seriously haf 2 stop skipping sch... i starting 2 hate myself 4 skipping sch... can some1 just slap me? haiz...

missing band alrdy... miss playing loch lomond... miss playing princess mononoke... miss playing 7th night of july even though i cant really get it correct... miss playing overture jubiloso even though so many freaking high notes.... miss playing to challenge the sky n heaven above even though its so easy... miss playing oregon even though its been awhile since i played it.... haiz... cant wait for band 2 resume...

i'm wif her... so lonely..

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woke up from my dream tat seem 2 last 4ever... first thought tat went through my mind when i woke up was "2day is sunday rite?" n guess wat... its not... so keep snoozing my alarm till 8 30.. than woke up bathe n went for band... played princess mononoke, 7th night of july,overture jubiloso and some others... my god... my lips gonna tear soon... for all the songs 90% of it i'm playing 1st tbone de part... wah seh... so freaking high... my god... when tenor tbone come i'm gonna haf trouble wif it lor... sure not used 2 it de... i go back sec sch play high notes wif tenor tbone alrdy wan die dont die liao... oh well... lets wait n see... cant wait for yr end concert... my god.... so excited....

so after band prac we had buffet... teacher catered food for us as a celebration... so nice lah the food.. just love having lunch wif my seniors... so funny lah... haha... but i hate our sch cafe de owner... like wth lor we cater outside food he there kpkb say we dint cater from him... like wtf.. u dont open the cafe u expect us do wat? than we cater outside food in u not happy... so money face ah? than say stuff like "this time round i let u all off" aiya u can go fk off lah hor... if tats the way u treat ur customers than might as well dont do business rite...

so after all those playing and eating... i went home... dint follow seniors go c fireworks... oh well...

sad sia... next wk no band.... starting 2 feel bored alrdy.... gonna miss my seniors n section mates n other band mates who bring so much fun n laughter 2 the band.... although sometimes i dont get the joke... but still laughter is contigoeus... it spreads like flu n cough... haha...

life without band sux... BAND RULEZ!!!! n all band member rox.... no matter which sch or wat... they rox... although i dont like chong cheng high yishun band... but.... they mayb rox in thier own way bah... but still i hate them... LOL

anyway... come support ite band on 8th nov (sat) for our yr end concert.... location still not confirmed... ticket price also not confirmed.. most prob 10 bucks...

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i'm getting more n more pissed off wif my sec sch... went back sec sch for band 2day.. n they had rehearsal for the speech day + national day celebration.. was happy at first... but my face turned black in just a few moments... first of all... our sec sch is so fucked up tat they dint even care bout the band any more... y? cos when rehearsal, they restart the whole entire event they dint fucking inform us... n ended up saying stuff like "band r u guys rdy?" knn duno WTF the mc doing... duno WTF she said 2 the teacher.. we arnt informed tat we r gonna restart... 2ndly when i conductor tried 2 shout 2 ask them 2 inform us when they gonna restart, the teacher just fucking walked off... HE JUST FUCKING WALKED OFF... WTF IS THIS?!?! U CALL THIS RESPECT? if u call this respect than this sch can just close down lah... teacher say stuff like "we gave u respect but u dint gave it 2 us" now i can shoot them back... "u gave us respect? does walking away when ppl trying 2 talk called respect?" 3rdly they asked the band 2 play the national anthem on tat day... n yet during rehearsal they just fucking played using pa system... and after tat told us "oh... we dont need the band 2 play it anymore" eh hello... WTF u think ur fucking doing... make up ur fucking mind... u wan us 2 play than let us play... if not just dont fucking ask us in the first place... u treat the band as wat? u think it doesnt take time 2 prac ah?i'm just super pissed... mayb i should tell the band teachers "eh cher if the band doesnt even haf a place in the sch's eye.. might as well dont ask us perform at all.. any special events dont ask the band play... so much btr..." cca fair we from front stage move further back of the hall as the yr pass.. n now its all the way behind of the hall... speech day, we were on the parade square marching... n now, we r just standing outside the hall n playing for the parade... seriously... 1 day the band gone no1 will notice it as well lor... FUCK THE SCH!!


so after tat i went for ite band sectional... was so bored... wana slp lor... so sianz.. another slacktional... so officially confirmed... our yr end concert is on 8th nov... duno y.. so many thing falling on 8th of a mth... 8th aug my sec sch's event and close of registration for genting competition... so far haf a chance of going... really hope we can go... than 8th nov our concert... oh well... duno wat we playing yet... so far the songs abit sianz n i can die... oregon,7th night of july n overture jubiloso... I'M PLAYING 1ST TBONE FOR ALL... for now lah tat is... n i think my lips giving way soon... starting 2 crack n bleed n all.. oh well.. still waiting 4 new tbone 2 come...

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