dint slp the whole nite last nite or should i say cant slp... keep twisting n turning... than when fall aslp my stomach cramp... wat a torturous nite.. dint go sch 2day... dont think i'm going tmr also... stomach feeling funny... arg... duno eat wrongly wat stuff sia... anyway feeling damn moody 2day lah... mayb cos not enough slp bah... haiz.... tmr got band... sat got band + celebration.. i wonder when tenor tbone come sia... n hope its the correct 1... ltr so make me happy for nth again... like sec sch.. conductor say bought bass tbone.. in the end is single trigger bass tbone instead of double 1... haiz... anxiously waiting 4 new tbone...

sometimes i feel tat i wana noe u more...
sometimes i just wana understand u more...
sometimes i just wana noe wat u think bout me...
sometimes i just wana noe wat r u truly feel...

however sometimes i find it hard 2 understand...
sometimes i just cant figure out wat u r thinking...
sometimes i just feel tat i'm left hanging in the middle of no where....
sometimes i got sick n tired...
sometimes i felt like giving up...

but i dont wana give up...
i dont wana lose u...
can u truely tell me how u feel bout me?
i just wana say i love u lots..
and i will always do..
if the sky fall, i'll hold it up for u..
no matter wat i'll b there 4 u till the end of time

did nth much 2day... morning my class rep msn-ed me say 2day napfa so dint wana go... so stayed at home... watched the anime Prince Of Tennis.. till bout 1 30... than went n slp... till now... 7 30... n yet i still feel like slping... super tired... keep having such weird dreams... slp n wake up slp n wake up...

i really wonder y my life is so boring? boring life.. boring lifestyle.. boring voice... boring looks... y? i seriously duno... sometimes ppl ask me too... but wat 2 answer when i myself duno... time pass just like tat... time doesnt wait for nobody... well sometime i hope time does n yet sometimes i dont... y doesnt time pass slower when ur enjoying it? y doesnt time pass faster when ur not enjoying it?

loving some1 is hard... but its not a bad hard... not like hard till u wana give up... its hard till u wana charish it... loving some1 takes lots of time.. its not wasting of time.. but its spending time 2 understand him/her... n i just wana say... i love u lots... i'm sry 4 being so naggy at u... asking u slp early n all.. i noe its irritating... but i'm just worried bout u.. concern bout u.... i dont wana c u sick n plus dragging ur feet go sch.... or hear u say like ur super tired n all... i rather u scold me or hate me than c u suffering... i just wana say i love u lots n it will nvr change... b it how long i will still love u...

watched dark knight 2day... not a bad movie... just tat its abit too long bah i guess... 3 hrs+ leh...wah i at there cant sit still lor... haha... after tat went mac 2 eat... than chat till bout 9 plus 10... than went home...

sometimes its hard 2 make a decision... n sometimes u might doubt ur own decision... u dont let chance decide ur life... but u give urself chance.... dont regret wat decision u made... if its a bad 1... take it as an experience... if its gd... than charish it... every decision made there r consequences... there r different types of consequences.. gd,bad,not so gd,not so bad... mayb a mix of some... eg. if u steal things n get caught... consequence is tat u get caught,punished but atleast u learnt ur lesson... although through the hard way... y am i talking bout all this anyway... lol...

AH!!! SO HAPPY!!! GOT ANOTHER RECORDING OF MY NBC!! SO MUCH CLEARER AH!! haha

recieved 'THE' letter le... when i saw the letter i was like see "MINDEF" than was like wah jia lat sure ns de... duno 2 b happy or 2 b sad... 2nd wk of aug need 2 register le... after tat need 2 defer.. after ite need go for ns liao... after next yr of ite the following yr going 2 ns le.. by than i would b botak... 2 yrs in ns.. haiz.. i think i'm so gonna miss her... anyway... i shall enjoy my time for the time i haf b4 i go ns...

sometimes i just hate myself.. dont i ask me y... just feel it tat way...

nth much 2 blog about le.... haiz...

had band yesterday.. man so happy when i saw pirates of the caribbean de score lah... than was so excited 2 play it... end up............... dint get 2 play... haiz... so band prac just go past like tat... gonna haf celebration for us getting silver for nbc.. gd rite? haha... than our teacher say those who join nbc gets a straight A for our cca... like wth lah.. join 1 event nia get A liao.. haha... cant wait for all this sia... n plus 60 bucks.... so many incentive lah... n FINALLY new tbone coming.. i cant wait sia.... finally can get 2 play trigger tbone... really hope teacher buy the correct 1 lor.. ltr buy wrong again very sianz 1... i really wana play bach tenor tbone again... miss my sec sch de tenor tbone.. my bao bei wife pei me for 3yrs... since sec 2 till sec 4... than now wif my junior... but nvm lah... got new wife.. n another 1 soon 2 come.. LOL.. erm for ppl who view my blog n think my wife is a person... pls dont misunderstand ah... the "wife" i refering 2 is my trombone.. ok... so during prac first thing our conductor do when he came in was told us wat the judges comments were... dint noe the judges think tat we play very well... i mean like... comments such as "great dynamic contrast", "nice balance","transparent sound (i duno wat it means but my conductor said it means tat all the parts can b heard clearly so its a gd thing)" but just tat our march piece was pushing the tempo abit n for both songs some parts out of tune n stuff like tat nia... was happy lah...

so now preparing for our end of yr concert.. and still deciding if we r going 2 the genting competition anot... really hope u guys can go our yr end concert lah... if we going for genting competition than its like damn rush sia... 1 wk b4 competition we haf our concert.. than next wk for 5days 4 nite we will b at genting.. than after tat we will b having our exams le... guess by than its my time 2 b busy bah... somehow i'm excited.. yet...... somehow i'm not...

time just pass by so fast... i've been in ite for 7 mths alrdy... and in ite band for bout 6 or 7 mths le... somehow feel tat ite bandmates some r rather not confident wif wat we can do... just cos they cant play the piece, they dont prac the piece unless conductor ask them 2... i find its seriously stupid lah... u wan play nice songs yet u complain hard.. most of those nice songs u hear r hard pieces lor... than when bring easy scores they thinks its very easy n boring.. than might as well dont play anything rite? too easy u find it boring... too hard u dont wan prac... i sometimes really duno wat 2 say sia... i noe i just came in only... but seriously some of those who were in it longer than me r so not matured lah... how can u play gd music without practising? yes aichi medien was superb u guys heard it... u think they just pick any tom,dick or harry from the streets n play for them? no wat... they also practiced and all... n now... if they can play tat well.. wat makes u think we cant? cos wat? not enough practice? than make every sec counts... i noe tat sometimes really no mood 2 prac just like me.. go there slack... but still... if get new scores n all take n prac lah.... wats the point of u sitting there slack or playing those parts u alrdy noe how 2 play? duno wat 2 say lah... if i voice out ltr all shoot me n all... learn 2 b quiet liao... in sec sch say something wrong nia tio shoot liao... go c seniors blog wow... all talk bout u.... so learnt 2 b quiet...

life is full of ups n downs... y isnt there lefts n rights? ppl take things for granted... y dont they leave things for granted? when ppl lost wat has always been there for him/her than they cherish it?... y is tat so??

i duno wat i'm talking about also... just crapping around..

alrite... its late n i gotta rush finish this post n get 2 bed early... haf 2 wake up early ltr for band prac.. my god.... anyway aichi medien band performance was EXCELLENT!!! man its been such a long time since i enjoy a concert so much... not tat the concerts i went r boring.. its just tat sch band concerts r so similar 2 each other.. i mean like theres a trend or something like tat... like certain period of time certain songs r popular n u get 2 hear it in almost all the concert u go 2... which make it feel like "did i came this concert b4?"... anyway... man i seriously love jap band... mayb cos they noe how 2 entertain the audience... n OMG the girls r so CUTE!!! haha... my friends n seniors was like there shouting "MIKA!!!" haha damn funny lah... its been such a long time since a band made me haf goosebumps when i hear them play... wow... out of 10 i'll give them 9.5... n i pity them also lah... encore 4 or 5 time sia.. i'm sure they very tired alrdy.. but still they give in thier best 4 us... really worth our money.. when i grow up i'm gonna go jap n go for jap band de concert.. if can i would wana go for tokyo kosei's concert... man i love them... ok... i'm going jap band crazy now... "AH!!!!! MIKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" lol... alrite all... i'm off 2 bed...

woke up wif a nice view of the sky outside my window... but 5 min ltr it went black n started 2 rain... than around 9 like tat family went off 2 airport le.. they should b in bangkok now bah... they will b coming back on monday... ok lah at first tot it would b on next wed... will b alone till next monday... haiz.... wana go bangkok shop for stuffs again... so long nvr go bangkok buy gundam models liao sia... hand abit itchy 2 fix some models lor... although take me less than 1 hr to finish 1 model... keep saying wana buy gundam model.. from last yr till now... i still haven buy yet... nvm... i haf 2 save money.... still waiting for my sis pay me my 500 bucks T.T


if only life is like wat they show on drama... wouldnt tat b so much btr? mayb our life is just a show too... who noes... mayb we r the actors/actresses n god is the director... who noes? wonder if i am fated 2 love u or not... sometimes watching too much drama really will make ppl think of some stuff... just like anime.... no matter how slim the chance... got hope or no hope... i will b there 4 u.... no matter how long it will take... i will always love u.. i guess this shall b my last time saying these type of stuff for now bah... dont feel weird than i stop saying all this 2 u... its just tat i think mayb i shouldnt make u feel so awkward n all le bah... u noe tat i love u can le.. i guess no matter how many times i say it, it doesnt make much of a difference rite? if it does make a difference i dont mind typing/writing/smsing it 2 u till like theres no tmr... mayb i should start 2 think bout wat u feel instead... mayb i should stop thinking bout the me or i... mayb i should think more of the u...


promise 2 myself
1.dont so itchy mouth.. keep eating n eating n eating... alot money wasted here u noe...
2.dont b tempted by computer stuff... cannot waste money on my com anymore...
3.dont keep skipping classes... must listen 2 class...
4.dont make her so awkward... this 1 i promise 2 u as well.. if i ask u such awkward questions again pls give me 1 tight slap..


i just wana say i love u lots and i will always b loving u.. n if u read but skip through... pls read through the 2nd para... hope tat u wont b like "tsk..." any comments about anything i said u noe how 2 tell me... love u lots again...

wats wrong wif me? i kept dreaming bout death... be it i'm the 1 dying or some1 else... but last nite 1 was the worst of all... i jumped up and keep taking in deep breaths... i dun really remember wat i dreamt about... but its so jia lat till it made me jumped n woke up... really creepy when its around this period of the yr... not tat i'm superstitious or wat... but its btr 2 believe than regret... so after the slping n waking up... its morning... so took my shower n went 2 sch...

was late 4 sch 2day... reached sch almost half an hr late lor... so went class... teacher dint come again... another teacher take over... was released half an hr earlier... n we haf no lessons till 1 pm.. its like from 10 30 till 1 lor our break... starting dint thought of going out of sch 2 eat... than after we eat finish just thought of it.. so my friends n i starting thought of skipping our lecture n go catch a movie... in the end we went up 2 this area of classrooms where the corridor has air con de.. went there slack.. played psp,listen music,play dai di.. spent 2 hrs there... than went for our lecture... slacked in lecture hall again while teacher teach... than after tat went for practical test.. my god i'm the first 2 install my printer n all... my friend tested printing wif my com on other com n it works.. n i tested it on his it got fked up... ARG!! god damit... wasted 45 min just for tat... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.... so went home after tat...

really duno who or wat wans to kill me... but if u wana kill just do it... dont come n disturb me... if u wana stop my heart from beating do it... keep giving me all these restless nites... seriously... if u wan me 2 die just do it... b it when i'm walking on the road let car bang me.. or when i'm slping or wat... just do it... its so much btr than wan die dont die tat feeling...

arg... duno wat i'm talking about also.... i just so moody.. i just wana die... i feel sad and yet i'm not sad... i feel angry yet i'm not angry... i feel tired yet i'm not tired... i feel happy yet i'm not happy... i feel hungry yet i'm not hungry... WTF IS WRONG WIF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i really wonder if i'm making any progress anot? or am i just still left behind there.... y everytime i feel moody the first person i think about is her? y?! y?! mayb bcos her smiles, the way she speaks, the way she react, the way she say stuff cheers me up... wonder how u feel bout me? guessed u would say still the same bah? if i were the ask u tat question again would ur answer still b a no or would it b a mayb? i seriously haf no confidence in myself... mayb u would say lets nature take its own course bah... i duno... haiz.. all i noe is tat i'm deeply in love wif u.. and tat will nvr change... guess when u c this u would b like "haiz.. bout me again" but really wana noe wat u feel or think bout me...guess u would say u duno or stuff like tat again bah...


i'm really feeling very sianz... haiz.... missing her... loving her... ya i noe u would say "i'm here wat... miss me for wat?" my reply will b i duno... i'm just missing u...

alarm clock rang at 6 30am... off it n set it 2 7am than keep snoozing till 7 15 than drag myself out of the bed n took my shower... went sch... reach class.. only half of the class there.. the our teacher wasnt there cos he on course.. haha i pity my friend sia.. he late for class.. than he tot teacher got come.. so he took cab down from sengkang.. cost him 17 bucks... lol.. n end up lesson end within 3 to 4 hrs... sad for him... ya.. so we ask the relief teacher 2 push the lesson forward... than 11 like tat end sch le...

reached home took shower than chat wif a chio bu on the phone... started out wif voice call.. than after tat ended up wif video call... haha... well u r chio lah... mayb u dont feel it... mayb u dont believe me... but u r really chio... i noe ur gonna give me tat -.- face again rite? haha... oh well.. cant stop a guy from calling a girl chio rite? ya lah.. mayb u think i'm just sweet talking... like u said.. i love 2 sweet talk... but wat i say 2 u r all the truth n r only the truth...

now i'm addicted 2 another song...

Wishes by Britt Savage

You can't stop believing - wishes do come true
You gotta believe me (wish on a star) wishes do come true...

I looked in the sky and there I saw a star shining so bright above
I closed my eyes and wished upon that I would find true love
Someone who needed me
Someone to share my life
For a love that would be true I would wait forever
So...no...matter how long it may be
I will be waiting

One star - brighter than the others
Two hearts - beating for each other
I believe wishes really come true

Love at first sight I knew it from the moment when you said hello
I hoped you felt it too, but we were both so shy - how was I to know
When you reached for my hand I knew you were the one
We laughed and talked for hours like I'd known you forever
Like...a...dream or something from a book
True love has found me

One star - brighter than the others
Two hearts - beating for each other
Now I see wishes really come true

You just have to dream
Nothing's as bad as it seems
To be...believe me
Someone's waiting for you to try
There in the sky

One star - brighter than the others
Two hearts - beating for each other
You will see wishes really come true

You can't stop believing - wishes do come true
You gotta believe me (wish on a star) wishes do come true...


quote from the song "For a love that would be true I would wait forever So no matter how long it may be I will be waiting" i will wait forever 4 u... i will b there 4 u no matter wat... i dont care if i got another 1hr 30 min of scolding through the phone or wat ever... i noe u must b thinking i'm not gonna wait for u 4ever and all.. its just bullshit n all.. but i will n i will prove it 2 u... be it 5 yrs, 10 yrs... i will still b waiting for u... really love u alot.. take care ya? haf lots of rest alrite?

went honor band concert yesterday... was nice.. yet feel tat its abit unfair in certain points... 1stly... y did cch yishun get the chance 2 play? y didnt main played? they r the 3rd band of 1st divi... unless they r trying 2 say only gold bands can perform.. its really bull shit... it is suppose 2 b the top bands of the divisions... they cant just replace it wif another band from another division... like tat might as well say ite also can perform.. seriously hate cch yishun... i dont care they play gd or wat... think tat their very gd like tat...

seriously i duno who r those who bad mouth ite band... but i can tell u.. well known conductors doesnt haf 2 b gd... some conductors can b well known but is not gd.. he/she is just well known... so wat if ite band haf a conductor who hardly anybody noe? he may not b as popular as david gloze but still... he is gd.. wat makes u think cos ite band haf ppl coming from different band means we cant do well together? if tats the case u saying poly bands as well? individual we r unique but together we r complete... tats wat ite band is about... ite band is still young... so wat if u hardly seen us in competition... so wat if we r happy tat we got silver... so wat if u think ur own band is so much btr... wat rite do u haf 2 bad mouth us?

btw the 2nd paragraph doesnt refer 2 any1 i noe.. the "u" and the "he/she" doesnt refer 2 any1 in particular as well... its just a comment for those who my friends,families and myself heard bad mouth ite band during nbc itself... it really makes me disgusted... i mean i noe i hate cch yishun but still i admit tat they r gd.. not like some comment by the member of the audience during 13 july at vch overheard by my mum saying stuff like tat... stuff like we r not gd this n tat... saying we dont deserve silver n all... if let me noe who n which band... i tell u.. they gonna haf a bad reputation waiting for them... b it some well known band... they r so gonna get fked up by me if let me noe its them...

oh well.. so after the concert went 2 eat wif my seniors n all.. lol pris ur "eh~ hi" very cute hor... haha.. so nice sit infront of me n my bandmates... oh well... so we ate bk... at bk i was like talking bout the workshop after nbc n i wanted 2 say "after nbc normally haf workshop 1" but i said "after nbshh normally haf workshop 1" than my senior was like laughing like mad.. than crap bout some stuff n had non stop laughter... even on the way from marina square to mrt station we kept laughing... ppl tot we r mad or drunk or something... haha... so funny.. enjoy going out wif my seniors cos mostly its non stop laughter...

finally took another pic wif u... like since so long lah... hehe... thx ah... u still remembered... ^^

added some new songs 2 the blog... and heres the lyrics for 1 of the songs..

"looking through ur eyes" by LeAnn Rimes..

Look at the sky tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes and describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight
That's what I see through your eyes
I see the heavens each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles
And suddenly I know my life is worth while
That's what I see through your eyes

Here in the night I see the sun
Here in the dark our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself and instead I see us
Whoever I am now it feels like enough
And I see a girl who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes
Here in the night I see the sun
Here in the dark our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever
Here in the night I see the sun
Here in the dark our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

Looking through your eyes


hope u guys like the songs... gonna take a nap first.. gonna go vch ltr.. most prob gonna update blog again ltr.. but not confirm..

sch was... well.. somewat the same.. n yet somewat boring.. nth much 2 say bout it.. went home ate lunch... n help my dad burn incense paper... wah he was like at home he dont wan go burn himself.. always leave it for me 2 burn now a days... mayb wan me 2 learn how 2 burn? oh ya... think of this... now i remembered... when my family go overseas i haf 2 wake up early... MY GOD!!! need pray n all.. change the tea lah... this lah tat lah... arg... for 1 wk i haf 2 wake up earlier than b4... haiz.... than after burn the incense paper... watch anime.. after tat went 2 bed... wah suddenly feel so tired... feel like i'm wana slp for a long long time like tat.. than around 7 like tat woke up.. wah i hate the feeling like when u wake up its like dreamy feeling.. so woke up... breathing like no tmr.. dont ask me y.. just feel tat i ran 2.4km like tat... than went out my room.. my mum was like "gd morning~ wan eat dinner ma?" lol i was still in the dreamy state so dint reply her... than went 2 my com... sat there n daze at my com.. really damn dreamy... ok... nth much alrdy..

went sch... skipped multimedia lecture 2day.. so reach sch at 1 30 n slack at cafe till 3 30... than my friends n i went up for our multimedia lab... than realize they start liao.. so went in... just do the lab for 2day... erm its bout adding credits.. u noe after movie tat 1? yea... so we just add it... n than its like so easy lah.. less than 5 min done liao... so after we done can go home le... shoik rite? go lesson for 5 min nia... LOL...

after sch went home played game wif my friend... than wanted 2 go slp de... i lie on my bed tat time my parents came back n was like saying "lets go..." than i was like "go where?" i totally 4got tat i am going my ah ma house 2day lah... so went 2 my ah ma house.. ate dinner le... than after tat was like damn tired.. so slpt on the sofa... than my ah ma ask me go in the room slp... so went inside slp... from 7+ slp till 9+ than go home...

n now i'm here blogging... man saw how our band did 4 nbc... was surprised.. dint think we would do so well...n both our songs r like roughly the same marks... haha.. march piece was like 1% lesser than our choice piece...

i duno y... but my body is filled wif scars.... i really hope some of the scars can just b removed just like tat... some scars bring back sad memories u noe.... sometimes just hope it would b gone.... sometimes i feel tat ppl tat see my scars n dont noe me would b scared... cos those scars r like so...... oh well...


Hey love
When you ask what i feel
I say love
When you ask how i know i say trust
And if that's not enough
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that i could show you
Ever since i've come to know
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this way
There's not a thing that i can point to
coz it's every little thing you do

duno y... but feel tat alot of song's lyrics tells how i feel towards u, how i think of u, y i love u, y i cant let go... and the lyrics on top is another songs tat is similar 2 the reason y i love u... take care of urself alrite.. love u always... u may say there is no always or eternal... but i can say this... i will love u till the time when my heart stop beating, when my mind stop thinking, when my body stop moving, when i stop breathing... until then i will love u till the end... u can choose not 2 believe me... but i'm telling u... with my life i can swear tat wat i'm saying is the truth...

went 2 sch 2day... starting tot i would b sianz... so just carry on wif lesson... than middle of com management lesson... our CA (class advisor or wat u guys call them as form teacher in sec sch) called n said tat care lesson (something like student teacher time like tat de) postponed 2 tmr... than my multimedia cancled... so if tats the case we had break from 11 to 3 than continue wif com management... than we asked our teacher push it 4ward... than he push till 12pm... n guess wat he was late for 1 hr... n he let us go at 2... than i waited 4 my friend.. than went home...

haf any1 wonder wat would it b like when 1 day u slp n could not wake up... u haf lots of things left unsaid 2 those who u wana say it 2... u haf lots of things not done yet.. i really wonder wat it feels... i duno y suddenly this came 2 my mind... suddenly just feel so.... oh well... just wana say 2 all my friends... if it really happens 2 me 1 day.. i just hope tat all of u guys stay happy... may all ur wishes come true... n hope tat i'm always a gd friend 2 u guys... n 2 her... i'll always love u and always hope 4 ur happiness and not 4getting always smile ur smile is the sweetest smile ever... n also i'll always b watching over u... support u when u fall, blk the rain 4 u... u noe.. when u accidentally tripped on when walking or road or anything... wat ever... haha... but tats when i'm gonna slp 4ever.... n who noes when tat will b... oh well... i'm thinking too much again i guess..

oh well... this wk no band... feel happy yet feel sianz at the same time.. y do i always haf this feeling? when u r having band u feel tat its boring n all.. but when ur not... its like so boring too... mayb just missing my section mates... missing the time we eat together... missing the time we share stupid stuff n joke together... oh well.. cya bandmates next wk than... will b alone at home by than... sad rite? yea.....

family gonna go bangkok on 23rd july... all the way till 29th.... n i would b alone 4 tat 1 wk... haiz... sad..... but i dint wan 2 go also.... cos i would b even more lonely there... i would b roaming the streets alone while they go 4 talks... i would b shopping alone when they r out... if not... i would b rotting in the hotel room for 1 entire day when they r out... so i rather stay in sg... atleast i can sms her n call her... mayb i should try 2 cut down the times i call her...

oh well... tmr starting sch at 1... wonder they meeting 4 breakfast anot... cya all.. take care all...

pass few days was so damn busy.. alrite.. anyway first of all.. congratz temasek poly band & MJC band on getting GOLD for nbc... gratz doreen,dalston n pris... haha.. n next.. gratz JYSB n ITE for getting SILVER for nbc..

jysb u guys done a great job... JUICE...

ite band members.. we did our best... its our first competition n yet we got such a high score.. we r proud of our silver although we could haf got gold if we stood up at the start... LOL... oh well... we had fun.. other band like damn serious when waiting outside.. but we were like going around taking pics fooling around n all.. haha.. oh well.. we r proud of ourselves n our conductor r proud of us... great job guys... huat ah... lol... up next... TBC genting competition... and not 4getting our YR END CONCERT!!

pris next time must take pic wif me ah... LOL... nvm lah.. dont need pai seh 1... XP...

i duno y i like cursed 2 get silver like tat... 05 syf.. in jysb got silver.. 06 nbc.. in jysb got silver.. 07 syf.. in jysb got silver... 08 nbc... in ite got silver... serious man... 4 yrs of silver... man... hope if we go genting nbc i can get my first gold.. haha...

told u not 2 worry le rite... worry so much 4 wat? end up dint get enough slp... silly girl... but....... oh nvm...

woke up in the morning feeling feverish... so dint went 2 sch... than around 11+ met esther at my house de bus stop n went 2 tp... passed doreen the adobe progs and than went wif esther 2 tp business sch de canteen... than esther insisted alden 2 meet us... so we 3 sat there n only esther ate.. lol... than esther ask alden 2 eat the "I <3 Singapore" de sweet.. i pity alden sia... dint noe a thing n ate it.. LOL.. after tat alden went back 2 do his projects and than esther n i go our seperate ways at the bus stop... at first wanted go back sch.. than its like damn early... so went 2 tm de yamaha c if got silver polish... but sad 2 say dont haf.. so went down go cs... than after tat took bus back 2 sch... than chat wif my sec sch teachers awhile n went 4 band...

wah seh... duno wat 2 say bout the band sia... pris ah... the boat haven reach the harbour how u wan the boat 2 go straight at the harbour... lol... anyway... feeling so tired ah.. first time i sat wif the band 4 combine n i slpt... can u believe it anot? my god... so damn tired... so after band as usual went 2 slack wif my juniors.. and walked home... in the rain tat is... sux lor.. walk half way suddenly rain.... -.-

1 wk just passed by in a blink of an eye... tmr n sat is our last prac b4 nbc... JY ITE BANDMATES!!! WE CAN DO IT!!! and 4 jysb members JUICE do ur very best n nvr give up...

if i let you go
i will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will i ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will i know
if i let you go

COUNTDOWN:
3 DAYS

jonathan... dont think so much... dont b so sensitive.... y am i always like tat? haiz....... being so super sensitive lah... stupid jonathan.. stupid stupid stupid!!! y think so much? y? stupid me... silly me... over sensitived me... haiz...........

i guessed ur shocked by wat i said yesterday... i mean who wont.. but i can tell u i really meant wat i said... i can swear 2 god, swear 2 u, swear 2 myself tat i really meant wat i said... its really not 2 pressure u or anything... its just tat u really mean alot 2 me... anyway.. take care... gtg 4 sch now...

When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
When I give my heart
I give it completely
Or I'll never give my heart


COUNTDOWN:
4 DAYS come on jonathan jy.. u can do it 4 nbc... we can do it...

went sch 2day.. was boring... but promised tat some1 i will go... dint wana lie 2 her... die wana break a promise made 2 her... so after sch went back 2 sec sch... c the band... ok lah not bad... improving... but still got alot of room 4 improvement... oh well... tmr multimedia lesson again.. haiz wana cry le lah....

just hope time quickly pass.... sunday is a big day for me n sat is a big day for jysb... gd luck jysb n JUICE!!! and jy all ite bandmates... we can do it... HUAT AH!!

every choice lead to consequence... be it a gd or a bad.. no1 can avoid this fact.. believe in wat u do n nvr back down..

do u agree wif tat quote?

COUNTDOWN:
5 DAYS

skipped sch 2day... slped till almost 12 2day.. so tired... than woke up watch rush hour 1,2 and 3... funny lah jacky chan.. 4 hrs 30 min in total... haiz... nth 2 watch liao sia... anybody got any nice show 2 reco??

i promise u tat i will go sch tmr k? u noe i wont lie 2 u rite? u can haf my words...


Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

COUNTDOWN:
6 DAYS

woke up in the morning.. took my hp saw doreen sms me... replied her n went back 2 slp... damn tired.. dint wan 2 wake up... but at the same time i couldnt slp... so woke up played audi... play 1 game tio bsod... than restart same thing happened... than got pissed off so dint play it anymore... than 2 like tat went expo met my senior... bought my shirt n pants... the pants i really waste money sia... length so short lah... oh well... than went beach road wif him 2 buy his shoe... than went back....

haiz.. tmr sch start liao sia... i dont wan go back sch..... haiz.......................................................................................................................................................................................................


when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway
So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u When I love u
No matter what

looking at the lyrics for this song.. i find it resembles my feeling for u.. although its not everything.. but most of it..

COUNTDOWN:
7 DAYS haiz....

alrite guys.. i'm back from a fun,tiring,boring,funny,hurting,wet,cold and duno wat else camp.. lol.. for more information pls continue reading..

1st day of camp 030708

met seniors at tamp inter n bought our breakfast.. than went sch.. reach sch bout 9 or 9 05 like tat.. so went into band room.. sat there fall in... than we were split into groups... after tat we had ice breaker till bout 10 or 10 30 like tat... than took our stuff n went 2 our sch library (where we slpt) put our stuff there and went back band room for prac... btw we bought the breakfast at 8 45 and we ate it while we were walking back the band room for prac... so prac from 11 to bout 1.. 1 to 2 we had our lunch break.. so ate finish went back band room... had sectional and combine.. so from 2 to 6 we had prac... than 6 to 7 had our dinner... than from 7 to bout 10 we had prac again... my god.... 1st day of camp n my lips like gonna tear apart alrdy... than went take shower... only let every group bathe 10 mins nia.. wth lor... so took a quick 1 n went out... than when every1 done we went back 2 the library, chatted wif pris on the phone after tat i played uno n joke around than i just fell aslp...

2nd day of camp 040708

woke up in the morning back feeling worst than b4.. had our wash up and went 4 breakfast... after our breakfast we went for prac... than we had games after tat... my god... we were all wet... i seriously mean wet.. 1st game.. we r suppose 2 wrap 1 groupmate wif toilet roll n than protect tat person from getting wet... the other groups the same.. so each group can send 2 person go atk wif water bomb... in the end... every1 was wet.. b it the 1 getting wrapped up or the 1 defending... so went on to 2nd game..they called it the drill game... every group r suppose 2 do marching... if they do it wrong they kena poured water at... so my group plan.. "1st 3 commands we just ignore let them pour us" lol so we went there... so like wat we said.. we ignore.. the the others was like laughing at us but we ignore.. than 2nd time we ignore the game ic was like "eh play properly leh... " so ok lah.. 3rd command we did... than like tat lor... so all the group went... last group was the game ic group.. lol.. wanted 2 make them very wet de.. end up abit wet nia.. so nvm.. 3rd game.. the bomb game.. u noe the "group # bomb group # bomb group # bomb to group # bomb" tat 1? ya... this 1 they really got bomb... water bomb... so we played... starting my group nvr kena.. always others kena... than we try bombing the ICs.. end up they throw at us.. haha.. than 1 of my section de senior kena thrown at his nuts... my god his face all red ah... LOL... i pity him sia... although i there laughing XP.. cos not just 1 bomb kena... 2 bombs leh.. than when he ok liao he say "guys pls protect urself properly ah... if not...... fire in the hole" lol... so we were covered in grass n all by the time we finish the game.. so went toilet wash...we were like all wet n we went for lunch... shirts still dripping wif water butts still covered wif grass.. meaning the pants there lah.. lol.. we had our lunch... than after lunch we went n change just change dint get 2 bathe... n went 2 our band room 2 move the instruments to our lecture hall where there is a stage n all... than by 2 we settled down there n prac walking in n out of the stage... till bout 2 30 n we start 2 prac... prac till bout 5+ 6 we went for dinner... from 6 to 7 we had dinner n slack around... than 7 we went back 2 the lecture hall do our maintance of instrument..till bout 8.. n went for shower... after shower... they played movie... but my seniors n i went down 2 play games... they starting played twister... wanted 2 join ah.. but my back hurts... than after tat they played a self invented game called "uno babi" which means "uno pig" lol fun ah... haha... shant explain how u play it cos its too long... than had lights out... than we there lie down chit chat... than i fall aslp again.. n was woken up by laughter... my seniors was conferencing wif the girls in the room through phone.. than i woke up n listen... wah i also laugh till stomach ache... cos they go imitated this sound clip where the lady go "er u wan buy cock(coke) ah? i got small cock(coke), medium cock(coke), big cock(coke)..." than my senior was like "u wan wat cock? i got big cock, small cock, medium cock... u give me 5 min n i will b banging on ur door" lol... than duno say wat "come wif free fries also.." lol wah seh i laughing there till mad than plus he speak in those indian mama shop guy voice.. wah seh.. than after convo finish i go back close my eyes.. the my senior there run n stepped on my knee.. wah... pain sia... so nvm... went back slp..

3rd day of camp 050708

woke up n washed up... than went for breakfast.. than clean up the place.. n went for prac... 2day our conductor came... n did our prac.. wah all so shag sia.. lips giving way lah this n tat.. so after prac we bring instrument back 2 band store n pack up.. debriefed n we went 2 makan.. recorded our playing 2day... was not tat bad.. but alot of cock up i guess? i noe i cocked up.. oh well.. n now i'm back home just finished my hot bathe... nice n long i should say.. bout 20min inside the toilet.. haha...

now u noe y i said it was fun,tiring,boring,funny,hurting,wet,cold and duno camp liao ma? haha...

thx 4 chatting wif me n smsing me for the pass few days... ^^

COUNTDOWN:
8 DAYS!!!!

alrite added some new songs... hope u guys like it.. although most of my song here sound sad... still hope u all like it..


When I need you
I just close my eyes and Im with you
And all that I so want to give you
Its only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day


In my heart i can no longer hold inside
all of the love i used to hide
i'll always be with you until the very endin this world there is no place i'd rather be
you are my life, my soul, my girl
and through it all i know
that you've come to see that you're the one till the end

COUNTDOWN:
FEW HRS... TILL MY CAMP
10 DAYS... TILL NBC

its only 3 15 and i'm blogging....

woke up in the morning no mood go band at all was thinking if i should pon anot... so lie on bed till 9... than woke up used com n saw my senior ask me call him till he pick up the phone... so called him.. he picked up n i was like "hello.. wake up alrdy?" than he there "*silence* hello... who r u" than i say "jonathan here u wake up alrdy?" than he "*silence* hello..... wake up alrdy...." lol... guess he still slping but hack care just hang up did my part alrdy XP... lol.. so went 2 band.. i was like late lor.. than end up reach there teacher dont wan open band store cos he say "so little ppl.. wait 4 others come than i open" -.- wth lor... than waited 1 hr than he opened the band store... so set up instrument n than combined prac.... after tat actually wanted 2 go makan wif seniors de... end up they go bugis than bo bian lor went home... than on my way back i bought lunch... reach home ate lunch n packed my bag... now i'm here blogging... gonna go my grandma's place soon... tmr 1st day of band camp... haiz... oh well... gd news u guys wont c me online 4 2 days... well 3rd day will b back so will b online... haha... normally ppl is c them online than happy... mine ppl c me offline happy... cos i'm always online LOL... yes i noe.. u would b there saying "glad u noe" yes i always noe... just dont wan say nia XP... oh well but still can contact me through hp.. only think is will reply u late at nite...


i'm so gonna miss u... duno at nite by the time we can rest will u still b awake anot... but u btr take care of urself... dont slp too late...

COUNTDOWN:
1 DAY
11 DAYS

woke up 2day dint felt my back aching.. but after tat felt it... fk man.. hurts like hell... cant turn my head too much... cant tilt my head up or down... cant turn left or right... it really sux... so went back 2 bed.. think after i wake up it would b gone... but 2 my surprise... it got worst... when i am reaching out 4 my hp it hurts like hell.. want 2 cry... so after tat woke up took my shower n went 2 cut hair... after cutting hair went back 2 sec sch band took sectional... after band talked wif 1 of the teacher-in-charge... the other seniors who r my junior which means this yr sec 4... was like asking teacher 2 let them haf an actual concert... than like tat lor... than the teacher was shock tat the band suddenly so small... haha.. after fall out went 2 eat wif my juniors... than actually wan walk home again de... but thx 2 my backache......... haiz.......... i feel like crying u noe... although i dont cry... but it hurts like hell... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say
It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

COUNTDOWN:
2 DAYS
12 DAYS