wats wrong wif me? i kept dreaming bout death... be it i'm the 1 dying or some1 else... but last nite 1 was the worst of all... i jumped up and keep taking in deep breaths... i dun really remember wat i dreamt about... but its so jia lat till it made me jumped n woke up... really creepy when its around this period of the yr... not tat i'm superstitious or wat... but its btr 2 believe than regret... so after the slping n waking up... its morning... so took my shower n went 2 sch...

was late 4 sch 2day... reached sch almost half an hr late lor... so went class... teacher dint come again... another teacher take over... was released half an hr earlier... n we haf no lessons till 1 pm.. its like from 10 30 till 1 lor our break... starting dint thought of going out of sch 2 eat... than after we eat finish just thought of it.. so my friends n i starting thought of skipping our lecture n go catch a movie... in the end we went up 2 this area of classrooms where the corridor has air con de.. went there slack.. played psp,listen music,play dai di.. spent 2 hrs there... than went for our lecture... slacked in lecture hall again while teacher teach... than after tat went for practical test.. my god i'm the first 2 install my printer n all... my friend tested printing wif my com on other com n it works.. n i tested it on his it got fked up... ARG!! god damit... wasted 45 min just for tat... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.... so went home after tat...

really duno who or wat wans to kill me... but if u wana kill just do it... dont come n disturb me... if u wana stop my heart from beating do it... keep giving me all these restless nites... seriously... if u wan me 2 die just do it... b it when i'm walking on the road let car bang me.. or when i'm slping or wat... just do it... its so much btr than wan die dont die tat feeling...

arg... duno wat i'm talking about also.... i just so moody.. i just wana die... i feel sad and yet i'm not sad... i feel angry yet i'm not angry... i feel tired yet i'm not tired... i feel happy yet i'm not happy... i feel hungry yet i'm not hungry... WTF IS WRONG WIF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i really wonder if i'm making any progress anot? or am i just still left behind there.... y everytime i feel moody the first person i think about is her? y?! y?! mayb bcos her smiles, the way she speaks, the way she react, the way she say stuff cheers me up... wonder how u feel bout me? guessed u would say still the same bah? if i were the ask u tat question again would ur answer still b a no or would it b a mayb? i seriously haf no confidence in myself... mayb u would say lets nature take its own course bah... i duno... haiz.. all i noe is tat i'm deeply in love wif u.. and tat will nvr change... guess when u c this u would b like "haiz.. bout me again" but really wana noe wat u feel or think bout me...guess u would say u duno or stuff like tat again bah...


i'm really feeling very sianz... haiz.... missing her... loving her... ya i noe u would say "i'm here wat... miss me for wat?" my reply will b i duno... i'm just missing u...