duno y but i kinda miss the times when i walk back alone on the lonely streets late at nite.. mayb its just becos it makes me 4got tat i'm lonely as it seems tat nobody is around, nobody tat would care wat i did or wat i say... and also those rainy nites... walking in the rain... taking my own time it all just let me 4get all those troubles... but the troubles still remains deep down inside of me.... theres just this empty feeling in my heart... and it doesnt feel gd at all... sometimes i really wonder y god made my life so miserable.... yes i haf caring family members... yes i look "smart" to ppl and ppl envy me cos i dont study my exams n pass wif flying colours...yes i may haf a gd life as i dont haf 2 work as hard as some others out there.. yes i am borned without any disablity... yes on appearance i may haf friends... 10 out of 9 dont keep in contact wif me.... sometimes i even 4got y i made friends wif some of them... is life really so bad? wat can i say? got caught n scolded for stealing stuff in primary sch... had an ex who broke up wif me cos i was into band too much... losing wallets almost every once when i go into a new sch... pri once,sec once and recently in ite once... i just duno y i feel tat i'm on a different world from others... just feel tat there are walls between me n everything else...

yes it may seems like a patch of nonsense 2 u... but 2 me... its the only way i could speak out my feelings... if i dont,i think sooner or ltr u will find me on the news or even the newspaper.... after blogging all this... does it even help in feeling btr? i really duno... but its btr than keeping all in my heart and sooner or ltr everything just blew up... just feeling so empty..